Personalized elf on the shelf letter

Here I am again. Saturday night, alone, some old school remix playing in the background on YouTube wishing I had some significant other to annoy while I dance ridiculously around the room with an infectious smile on my face.
I’ve reached a point in my life where I’m finally happy, happy within my self, able to look in a mirror without cringing & just genuinely not wanting to cry myself to sleep. Which is why I think I’m ready to welcome a person into my life.
They say, you’ll find “your person” when you least expect it or when you’re not looking, however in these quiet times of my life, it’s hard to not occupy my mind & thoughts of the possibility of finding “the one”. However as the years go on, as I get older, as technology evolves & the accessibility to people becomes easier, the dating world begins to suck more & more due to the desires of instant gratification, the lack of depth, the lack of substance & the need for men to just f*ck anything with a hole or women practically begging for money.
Getting to know people is becoming a chore & when you think you’ve found someone decent enough, they’re either on the opposite side of the world where the thought of one of us having to uproot our life for “the love of our life” doesn’t seem viable on day 1 or people just end up disappearing into the sunset never to be heard of or seen again.
But alas, once again. I am here, pouring what I have left of my heart out, hopeful that my Mr stumbles across this post looking for his Mrs. Ready to share our stories, talk about our traumas & at the point of their life where they’re ready to make new memories.
So a bit about me, I’m 32, I live in Australia however was born in New Zealand, I work full time, working out is something I’ve come to enjoy although I’m still a thicccc b*tch I’m getting fitter, I might start Brazilian Jiu Jitsu soon, my favourite movie is pride & prejudice (which probably explains why I’m such a hopeless romantic deep down), I’m sarcastic as hell, I’m socially inept because my face can’t hide my feelings & when I love a person, whether it’s family, friends or a significant other, I give them my everything. I may be a little moody at times, a little goofy, sometimes intense, other times quiet but I am me & me, right now… I’m happy with. And finally, today is the 2 year anniversary of my nan passing. She was probably one of the most important people in my life, so although today has had its moments, I’m genuinely happy & ready to chat with whoever is interested :)

Like deadass I know this is pretty self explanatory but I have seen so many people call darkie racist. It amazes me that they also refuse to debate it and listen to his philosophy. They try to be offended for people when that isn't how it works.
I can count the amount of actual poc who complain about him on my fingers. Just the ignorance they have pisses me off especially because my poor ass has been accused of trying be black cause of how I was raised. Like dawg that right there is racism, I've talked before about how we connect to much to race. But seriously why do people correlate black people and the way they act to being poor.
It genuinely pisses me off how many stigmas there are to being a certain race. Like wtf so because I don't act like some suburban prick I'm trying to be black. Idk if rants like this are allowed on here but I just wanted to talk about it. Also there are so many homophobes using darkie audios to spread hate. That pisses me off so much, like how dare you use such an amazing persons brand to spread your filth.
If you read all of this thank you and I hope you have a good rest of your week. Much love from a friendly dumbass

Im 20 years old and i currently have multiple cavities. I’ve been without a dentist for almost 2 years because the previous one was a horrible place and told me the reason for my bad dental hygiene was because i’m fat. Throughout my entire childhood, starting in elementary, I have had terrible dental health. The main reasons for this include medical neglect(due to cost), poor mental health, my severe fear of doctors/dentists, and sensory issues. This has caused me to have at least 100 cavities since I was a child and i still get them. Brushing my teeth consistently is incredibly hard for me and no matter how many methods i’ve tried it hasn’t gotten any easier. I’m ashamed of my teeth and i’m tired of having to get fillings over and over again. Even right now, I have a toothache that is making my ear hurt and i’m still pushing off the dentist. I cover my mouth when i smile and if I hang out with someone I wear a mask so there is no chance they can see my teeth. At this point, i’m wondering if it would or even if i can just get dentures. I don’t know if there are other ways besides getting dentures or fillings or much about any of this but i want to ask for advice on here before going to a dentist in person and risking the unnecessary embarrassment. If anyone can help at all i’d greatly appreciate it.

From the first day on, I understood that she was something special. Our chemistry was so strong that we were talking all day long and every day till night. We had sweet moments, We had deep moments, we had funny moments, we had moments, where we said the same thing at the same time, which showed that we were soulmates. She likes things that I do, her mentality is pretty similar to mine. She made me strong when I felt bad. I gave her the attention she wanted. She told me that She is in to me. She told me she really likes me and that I was special. I told her the same. I told her that she was the sweetest, funniest and most intelligent person Ive ever met. She was so pretty, that my eyes falling out. She was my type and prettier than everyone Ive met so far. She was both, in character and aesthetic a 10/10. Ive met many people but it was the first time I told me she was the one. And then? We started to talk about very serious things like future plan, engaging and so on. She was a bit older than me and I told her that I need more time. I told her that I have to learn so much more about life and that Im not yet ready to take responsibilities of an husband. I told her that I wasn’t ready for a quick start and that I need it to be slowly and in time. She told me, that she has no time due to her age and position in life. She told me that she wanted something quickly and thats where we both realized.
She was the one. But gods plan had others in mind. Our timeline were shifted vor just a second in the context of the whole earth history. What are 3 years in a 14 billion years universe? We both new there is no point to proceed. I told her that i wanted to say a last thing. I told her what I felt for her and that Im really sad that everything was perfect except for one thing and that its the right to go different ways and that I wish her the best. I thought she deserves it. But she didnt answer on that and just said bye. Maybe she was too emotional, I dont know. We broke up, and the bitter part is that no one could do anything about it. Silence. From one second to another,nothing were the same. I can’t do anything but accept and live on.. everything was perfect, but nothing were on time.

I just recently met my dad for the first time since i was four, it’s only my second time with him now, im a minor. I’m not sure wether if not these things should worry me or not so i’m asking here. Sorry if it’s the wrong flair, but anyhow. It’s a 3 hour drive from moms to dads house. We had to stop at a motel on the drive there because of the heavy rain, my dad laid in bed with me, which didn’t bother me since i lay with my parents as i’m an affectionate-ish person, he wrapped his arm around my stomach. which again, i was fine with since i thought it was just affection and he missed me. I started to get uncomfy when he started putting his hand near my crotch area. Thinking he was just tired and didn’t realize his hand was on my stomach anymore, i got up to go to the bathroom in hopes he’d just put his hand back on my stomach. When i got back he put his hand back near my crotch. After a bit he put his hand on my thigh and rubbed it. I was uncomfortable, but i didn’t want to rush to conclusions. I fell asleep for a while. I woke up around 3am, his hand now right on my crotch, moving his finger on it. Luckily the rain had stopped so we left there. But now i’m not sure what to think i don’t want to rush to conclusions. Anyone have advice?

I genuinely feel so estranged from everyone else. I already don't have much in common with anyone. I just don't fit in. my heterosexual friends talk abt hot people and I can't relate. my lgbt friends talk about hot people and I can't relate. (people also talk about crushes (fictional or otherwise) and romance and I feel like an outsider cos I'm arospec). I feel like I don't belong with anyone.
I don't know why but recently I can't stop feeling so isolated. I think i don't hate necessarily being asexual but I hate being the only one... being misunderstood by people... being surrounded by people I'm unable to relate to... the feeling of missing out on such a big part of other people's lives... also, even being assumed to be allosexual makes me really uncomfortable for some reason. but if people ask I'll always say I'm straight unless they explicitly ask if I'm asexual.
people just don't understand asexual stuff. only 3 people know I'm asexual, and to others I've said "I don't get attracted to people" and they just say "huh?" with this tone that makes me feel like a weirdo
I feel like I'm overreacting but I also genuinely feel like such an outsider. like I'm not a genuine human person. but that's probably a combination of other stuff as well as the ace thing...

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Hello everyone! This post is geared towards those with a past of bodybuilding and general fitness.
I could really use some advice on my decision making going forward. Roughly 18 months ago I was obese and in the worst shape of my life. I decided loose weight. But, I had no idea what I was doing, I knew "eat less, move more" so I did cardio everyday and ate as little as possible. Because of this I lost weight really fast but by a certain point I was unable to lose anymore weight because I was simply eating too little. I was skinny fat, I hardly had any muscle but still had a body fat percentage above 15%. So back in the summer of 2022 I decided to start bulking up but it wasn't really until October that I started really understanding how much I needed to eat and train. At that time I was 18 years old roughly 5,5 and 115lbs. Now on March 24 I am 18 years old 5,5 and a little over 140lbs. But now I've reached a delimma, I've put on a good amount of muscle as well as a fair amount of fat. Because I already had more fat I'd say I am above 20% body fat. Now please help me. I want to play sports and be a capable person but I also am scared of returning to the old version of myself that was filled with so much self-loathing and hatred everytime I looked in the mirror. Is it okay for me to do a cut for a little bit so I can regain my confidence and composure trying to maintain as much muscle as possible? And then return to the bulk once I've reaffirmed my conviction? Thanks in advance!

I would be interested to hear what are points of your enneagram type description you can’t identify with, respectively if there are any.
After knowing the enneagram for more than 20 years now I feel still like I would actually be between the withdrawn types, while no type seems to be a really good fit, because they all have important parts that don’t apply to me.
I would be curious if others experience this too, or if some types experience it maybe more than others.
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I'm starting. Assuming that I’m a 9, important things that don’t apply to me, but are often mentioned in descriptions, are:
- I don’t avoid introspection, I actually think I do too much of it and it keeps me from taking action, because I really love it and it feels like there is always more to explore or to overthink.
- I’m not simple, I often make things more complicated with searching for meaning or a theoretical concept to explain things, because I tend to feel bored when I’m just taking the things how they are. It’s difficult for me to be present in the here and now and I love to analyze things. I feel much more excited when I’m confronted with theoretical and abstract thoughts than with real action.
- I often felt not happy to just be with others. When I can’t have interesting conversations with others I tend to feel much lonelier in company than when I’m really alone, and I become very bored.
- My emotions are often on a medium level when I’m alone, but I’m always completely aware of what I’m feeling and I’ve strong reactions on things that happen around me (sometimes delayed). My ability to experience excitement might admittedly be a bit impaired.
- I don’t melt with other people in a way that I mistake their wants and opinions for mine. I try to find common ground and keep interactions harmonious, but I’m completely aware of how I adept to others, when I'm holding things back or am inauthentic in some way. I’m constantly analyzing myself and the other person while I’m interacting with them.
- I feel more comfortable with melancholy than most people, the worst emotion is definitely anxiety.

I've seen a lot of articles dictating the importance of addressing the hiring manager by name in your cover letter. Not a single one of my friends have said they do this. Not to mention it is insanely hard to figure out who is in charge of hiring for a given position.
Any thoughts on this?

I can't be the only person that finds the guide unintuitive and confusing.
Using on Apple tv

So the other night I had a dream that really stuck with me. I'm not exactly sure what contextually happened in this dream, but at some point or another I ended up hugging my father, except my father was someone else entirely. It felt comforting and relieving, it was something hard to put into words. Afterwards I was woken up my my actual dad and he was angry that I was sleeping in so late. After he left my room, I remembered my dream about hugging this "other" dad and I cried. I don't know exactly why, but it was just my first response. Throughout the day my mind would come back to this dream and I'd start tearing up. Me and my dad's relationship isn't necessary amazing. It's kind of like we're just 2 acquaintances who resent eachother and live in the same house. Anyways, my goal with this post is to just get opinions on why I had this type of dream. Do I yearn for this experience? Why was my dad a different person? Etc.

Introduction

Well hello there! (General Kenobi!). I'm Snoky also known as you'll find out when we get to know eachother
I’m a 25 year old English/Norwegian guy from the U of K! I currently work in the IT Sector within the Local Government and my god I forgot how hectic the public sector was after i left it roughly 4 years ago. I did indeed have quite a shock coming back 😅
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Apperance

I'm on the bigger side but am looking to get that changed with some help due to i'm not very happy with the way thing's are currently. Minus that I'm 6'1/6'2, depends on which doctor you ask! I have short-ish hair dark blonde hair? I think? I'm not very good with colors so you'll have to tell me whenever we decide to exchange pictures.
Which i will be more than happy to exchange later on once we get to know eachother!
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Main Intrests/Hobbies

My main interests are either playing games with some friends on the PC, studying for future certifications and mainly what I do after work just kicking back and watching whatever random things I can find on YouTube (I aren’t a big TV person). I used to watch a lot of anime but I tend to drop out of it for a year and then I get back in to it then I lose interest again heh, it’s just a thing that I’ve been doing for years on end.
I am somewhat in to movies but I haven’t really properly watched any within the last year or so but if I was to give a rough genre, I’d say dark-ish movies with a grabbing story i.e. DC films and a here and there Marvel film (IW ftw!) I much more prefer it when the bad guy gets the upper hand and basically wins as close to that of Thanos basically.
My main music choices? Everywhere and everything. If my ears like it, then chances are I’ll most likely like it. I’d write down all the artists I follow right now but trust me it’d take too long to go over so it’d probs better to just share my Spotify playlist lmao. But to give a quick sum up I’d say its more around mixed genre, alt-rock basically.
I do also write my own stuff as well, but again like anime I do it for like 6 months then stop, then start a year later so eh it’s a pretty hit and miss hobby for me 😅
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Future Prospects?

As mentioned in my apperance section i'm in the process of trying to get fit with weight loss as I’m not very happy with how I am at the moment especially when it comes to health after a incident a few years ago but that’s neither here nor the future as I’m looking to change it with the help of the NHS and people around me. I'd be more than happy to join forces together with someone who's trying to do the same thing!
I currently own my own company which is currently under going some development but hasn't actually started as of yet (still looking in that area) but it will get there at somepoint!
Alongside my own company I’m also undergoing a project with a close friend of mine that we’re trying to pursue which is actually happening alongside the org itself so it's all looping togetherslowly but surely.
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What am i looking for?

I'm looking for someone who's intrested in getting to know eachother, someone who's got my back and i've got theres, someone i can well essentially "grow" with and get to know, someone who's willing to put the effort in to get to know me and vice versa.I'd like said person to be able to hold a convoersation with me as i've been in too many instances where it's all been one sided convos with me basically putting in more effort than the other person but alas that's neither here nor there and hopfully I'll maybe find the person who would share that equal effort with me. And trust me I've been ghosted loads of times to the point it's like "bruh, just why?" but anyway!
I'm open to long distant's so long as there's a goal to meet eachother in the somewhat near future!
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The End?

If you've made it this far after this somewhat long post then i must congradulate you!
I now have a small question for you to send me the answer too when you message me.
On what date and or month was a i born? I was born on the month of a certain red birthstone on a international memorial day
p.s, if you don't get it it doesn't matter it's worth a try regardless
Small partial note; If your going to time waste and just ghost me please don't bother messaging me as i'm only intrested in getting to know actual serious people...and please be able to hold a convosation with me and vice versa!

Introduction

Well hello there! (General Kenobi!). I'm Snoky also known as you'll find out when we get to know eachother
I’m a 25 year old English/Norwegian guy from the U of K! I currently work in the IT Sector within the Local Government and my god I forgot how hectic the public sector was after i left it roughly 4 years ago. I did indeed have quite a shock coming back 😅
​

Apperance

I'm on the bigger side but am looking to get that changed with some help due to i'm not very happy with the way thing's are currently. Minus that I'm 6'1/6'2, depends on which doctor you ask! I have short-ish hair dark blonde hair? I think? I'm not very good with colors so you'll have to tell me whenever we decide to exchange pictures.
Which i will be more than happy to exchange later on once we get to know eachother!
​

Main Intrests/Hobbies

My main interests are either playing games with some friends on the PC, studying for future certifications and mainly what I do after work just kicking back and watching whatever random things I can find on YouTube (I aren’t a big TV person). I used to watch a lot of anime but I tend to drop out of it for a year and then I get back in to it then I lose interest again heh, it’s just a thing that I’ve been doing for years on end.
I am somewhat in to movies but I haven’t really properly watched any within the last year or so but if I was to give a rough genre, I’d say dark-ish movies with a grabbing story i.e. DC films and a here and there Marvel film (IW ftw!) I much more prefer it when the bad guy gets the upper hand and basically wins as close to that of Thanos basically.
My main music choices? Everywhere and everything. If my ears like it, then chances are I’ll most likely like it. I’d write down all the artists I follow right now but trust me it’d take too long to go over so it’d probs better to just share my Spotify playlist lmao. But to give a quick sum up I’d say its more around mixed genre, alt-rock basically.
I do also write my own stuff as well, but again like anime I do it for like 6 months then stop, then start a year later so eh it’s a pretty hit and miss hobby for me 😅
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Future Prospects?

As mentioned in my apperance section i'm in the process of trying to get fit with weight loss as I’m not very happy with how I am at the moment especially when it comes to health after a incident a few years ago but that’s neither here nor the future as I’m looking to change it with the help of the NHS and people around me. I'd be more than happy to join forces together with someone who's trying to do the same thing!
I currently own my own company which is currently under going some development but hasn't actually started as of yet (still looking in that area) but it will get there at somepoint!
Alongside my own company I’m also undergoing a project with a close friend of mine that we’re trying to pursue which is actually happening alongside the org itself so it's all looping togetherslowly but surely.
​

What am i looking for?

I'm looking for someone who's intrested in getting to know eachother, someone who's got my back and i've got theres, someone i can well essentially "grow" with and get to know, someone who's willing to put the effort in to get to know me and vice versa.I'd like said person to be able to hold a convoersation with me as i've been in too many instances where it's all been one sided convos with me basically putting in more effort than the other person but alas that's neither here nor there and hopfully I'll maybe find the person who would share that equal effort with me. And trust me I've been ghosted loads of times to the point it's like "bruh, just why?" but anyway!
I'm open to long distant's so long as there's a goal to meet eachother in the somewhat near future!
​

The End?

If you've made it this far after this somewhat long post then i must congradulate you!
I now have a small question for you to send me the answer too when you message me.
On what date and or month was a i born? I was born on the month of a certain red birthstone on a international memorial day
p.s, if you don't get it it doesn't matter it's worth a try regardless
Small partial note; If your going to time waste and just ghost me please don't bother messaging me as i'm only intrested in getting to know actual serious people...and please be able to hold a convosation with me and vice versa!

For those unaware, uncle sam now supposedly has a white hat. Wikipedia article has a supposed original poster from 1917 showing unkie s with a white hat. If you google "uncle sam" the majority of results returned are with a white hat.
https://www.google.com/search?q=uncle+sam
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Uncle_Sam
Much like the notion that Bob Barker never delivered giant cheques, this too is huge bull in the minds of most of us. We managed to break the Bob Barker nonsense through sheer rejection of it as dumb and false. Now the narrative has changed from 'he never delivered giant cheques' to 'he did but it might not have been filmed or he might not have done it in person and it might have been for another company not publishers clearing house'
Retcons are ended by mass rejection of them as nonsense, it is my conviction. So let's nip the uncle sam one in the bud! How? It occurred to me that the most iconic uncle sam appearances I remember were uncle sam in stilts on parades and carnevals. Well guess what! They've not been updated Enjoy uncle sam with a striped hat to your heart's content here:
https://www.google.com/search?q=uncle+sam+stilts

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As an undergraduate, I always believed the myth that budgeting wasn't necessary because I didn't have much money to manage anyway. I thought that as long as I wasn't overspending, I didn't need to keep track of my expenses or make a detailed plan for my finances. But as the semester went on, I found myself struggling to make ends meet. I would often run out of money before the end of the month and have to rely on borrowing money from friends to cover my expenses. This led to accumulating debt and added stress, which made it harder to focus on my studies. It wasn't until I took a personal finance course that I realized the importance of budgeting. I learned how to create a budget plan and track my expenses, and I was surprised to see how much money I was actually spending on non-essential items. By creating a budget and sticking to it, I was able to cut down on unnecessary expenses and prioritize my spending. This not only helped me avoid debt, but it also gave me a sense of control over my finances. I no longer felt like my money was managing me, but instead, I was managing my money. This experience taught me that budgeting is a crucial part of financial success, regardless of how much money you have.

listen. so i was just sitting on the couch when i suddenly realized that someone in rzen appears to have been writing comments that where probably chinese characters in english. like you are writing in english, but as if you were thinking in chinese and then making a direct translation of chinese characters into english words
so if someone was to translate those words you wrote from english into chinese, they would come out in some form of chinese as if they were actually spoken originally in chinese, and not in english
i didn't know who it was, so i searched posts until i found one and it was you ”
my reply
well i have read a lot of chinese poetry (in translation of course as i can't read any chinese) and they do think a bit different, more semantically dense and minimally grammatic than english and basically targeted at an intelligent literate audience which was the administrative class, the same class that supported ch’an
its interesting to compare chinese poems with ryōkan who was writing for a general audience, often farmers and tonally, they are quite different
you have made a very interesting comment thanks
the cornea is the most nerve dense organ in the body, interfere with it at your peril !
we are so dependent on our eyes for our quality of life that any problems considerably degrade that
glittering seas
sonorous mountain tops
verdant valleys and trinkling streams
they do not last
because we do not last
the problem with post modernism and its critique on power (of itself not wrong) is that they take it a step further and apply a utopian value system and attempt to create a uniform distribution that historically has never worked, the constant of power in reality always being confined to small groups who try to maintain it with varying degrees of ferocity
"woke" is an example of this postmodernist theory, fortunately so flawed in its inconsistencies and the general level of retardation in its adherents that it is not a serious threat to the existing social order in the way bolshevism was though there is an undercurrent of marxism
art
is
intelligent
insanity
a solution (of the equations of string theory) is an approximation to a quantum state which is what really describes the universe
the mind is a prediction machine, its constantly involved in this sort of activity just to keep a formed world about you
faux religious ideas based on some sort of zero mental activity state like "the cessation of suffering", god’s peace, nirvana are just the usual craziness
even sleep is highly active with drastic functional shifts in the brain
not a nigerian princeling or general’s daughter with problems hiding what is rightfully theirs from an unjust world, but the real thing
Nazi Party = NAtional soZIalist German Workers’ Party; and its level of stupidity can be gauged by its forcing half the team who worked on the theory enabling the development of the atomic bomb to flee germany because they were jewish and one of those (otto frisch) ended up instrumental in the manhatten project along with many other émigrés who no doubt advanced the timetable by years
interestingly german scientists were very lukewarm on the prospects of an atomic bomb in WW2, fortunately for the allies as the japanese were surprisingly advanced in the development of a bomb and a well funded combined effort may have seen them producing such a weapon about the same time as the americans
another effect of the "diaspora" from germany and europe was the rise of hollywood with the incredible influx of entertainment talent
anybody reading about the last weeks in the berlin bunker can only come away thinking what a bunch of insane stupids !
interestingly hitler was deliberately childless and yet indirectly killed more than almost any-one else ever
endless the monks
asserting themselves against the master
who tells them
neither truth
nor falsity
failing to understand
they waste their time
the zen koan
"there are no teachers of zen"
well
it turns out
there is no zen either
women’s make-up has always been a black hole of toxicity and lack of regulation
the problem with eihei dogen, is not eihei himself but his elevation into a "cult god" by the soto zen sect and his writings are literally scripture than cannot be questioned by the faithful
when you can’t ask, "what if he’s wrong", then there is a problem
its a very christian paradigm actually and the worst is the monotonous bores who drone on and on with some wacked out "interpretations" of his more voynichated writings
unlike a lot of zen
ryōkan was real person
and those poems he wrote he actually wrote
and the places he wrote about
were real places
actually he was a poet, zen is their own claim
so its not surprising he was real
ed. there is a better than usual translation of ryōkan by john stevens called "dewdrops on a lotus leaf" , a lot of what is out there is stupid soppy designed to indoctrinate
roads
weave apart
intersect
and come together again
a succession of moments of truth
only to fragment
into the nothingness
of the unbenign
fog
of
life
stories
the insane tell themselves
and you
neither fantasy or reality
outside the boundaries
they have
a surprising salience
computation
the solving of problems
a vast meta in itself
yet how to
unsolve
the solved ?
looking at the strange characters of urdu
incomprehensible
yet to another will speak a clear understanding
so is life and we to each other
borderline personality disorder is a no exit street, fail to learn how to recognize it at your peril !
these gaslighting manipulators bring disaster to all around them
women are not like men, they can’t reason their way into "love". either they love you or they don’t !
sleep
some realm of somewhere
other than here
the brain
a
pinwheel
rolling along
a railway track
always
unstable
exegesis
the impaired
commenting
on
impairment
polynomial time = nondeterministic polynomial time
problems that can be solved
and problems that can’t be solved
but for which
solutions can be verified
the solution of the solving
has yet to be verified
who would have thought rupert murdoch would be such a vigorous old fool ?
four and now five wives
and he still doesn’t understand women
wealth being honey to flies
how we are born
what we are born into
the dice of existence
rolled for the first time
oppressive
difference
asynchronous
with this
life
as we know it
commonality
bites
like
an executors
axe
or burns
like an
immolation
i think emily bronte picked up TB at the "clergy daughter’s school" at cowan bridge as she felt her health was never the same after being there, it can remain latent for decades
the harm that boarding school did to the brontë family was beyond tragic, a deep colour that pervaded all that was to follow
i agree with this video , she was autistic
i am sure the sisters together had an accelerated artistic development through their mutual interaction, hence the very high quality of their writings so young
writing
helps isolate ourselves
from
the common herd
and
their idiocy
the beauty of memory
can flower
in ourselves
“ people, i can’t stand them ”
what about yourself ?
“ i’m not a person ”
politicians and diplomats wouldn’t last a minute if they said what they really thought
the way of the world
putin is selling out russia to china and killing his own ethnic kin, its really bizarre
the universality of aphorisms and poetry
there’s nothing that cannot be expressed
only an endlessness of the yet to be discovered
is and is not
knitting
reality

Hi. Well, Here's my story. Well, I'm a 22 year old male (23 years old in a few months) I been working ever since I was 13 at an apprenticeship for a close family member company. I really enjoy it being able to work from home and it pays way more than what it's worth. I work a lot, all the time I could until I was 16 when I graduated and took it full time plus. 60, 70, 80 hours a week; whatever it took to make that money. I went out of my way to not take my vacation weeks cause it was a sign of weakness; my dad was the hardest worker I knew before he retired. 3 years ago, it wasn't enough, so I took a second job to carry the time when I was not working or sleeping. It served me well. I was able to buy my own home with casg and be financially set and have a good bit toward retirement. Well, it was fine until a month ago when I had this for lack of a better, spiritual, moment as I was driving down the road. My mind was dreaming off and I just stopped on the side of the road and seen this family and the kids playing at this park just laughing. They looked so happy. I think about it now and I feel bad just setting there watching. I must have just watched them for an hour and the mother even waved at me. Anyways, I got back in my car,, went home and got ready to go back to work the next but the next day came, I couldn't. I had no drive, It was the first day I called in work since i had started. I spent the day walking around my town and breathing in and taking in the world.
That was a month ago and I feel like I'm going through a mental breakdown. I can't seem to want to go back to work all the time. I keep thinking about that family that was just enjoying the moment having fun. Anyways, this led me to a rash decision this week. I got over 20 weeks vacation and i decided to take the rest of the year off from my first job and only work lowest amount of part time at my second job. 15 hours a week. This has left me conflicted, empty inside. First, I feel so blessed to be financially able to do this as I know most are not so lucky. I know it was the sacrifice I made for years to be able to do this but still. Second, I realized what am I going to do? The fact is I never been in a relationship and never even had a friend. I don't even know who I am anymore.
So, this brought me here tonight. I'm looking for a platonic forever friend, a bro so to speak to spend time with daily, play games with, and watch movies; someone to help me find me. I know I'm a guy and I'm supposed to be tough but I'm scared of being alone with no one. My dad was recently diagnosed with cancer and I feel drained and empty. I know it's mostly my fault as I spent years pushing people away and lived with my quote "friends are for the weak"- I feel ashamed of that for my own preconceptions of who people are, I have no one to ask me how my day was or miss me or ask me to do stuff with. I mean I'm like a dust bunny in the corner. Now, I know how lucky I am with things I have but I think maybe I was chasing the wrong thing. Money was my cause, work was my cause. I'm thinking now people should have been cause; getting to know them and letting them know me. Woosh. I said I wasn't going cry and get emotional but here I am.
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I earn over 100k so looking to see what I can do to bring my tax burden down for the upcoming tax year.
Looking through the list I can see that I can claim for the professional body I am a member of (they’re on the HMRC approved list) but what does this mean? Does that mean the full cost of the membership will be taken off my tax allowance?
I need a mobile phone for work and use my personal device but charge any work use back to the company. Could I charge the cost of a handset against my tax burden for the year?
I have also made some additional pension contributions this month to lower the tax threshold.